Archive for September, 2009

September 30th, 2009

Living Into the Answer…


A beautiful individual I feel blessed and honored to know commented (in part) the following on a Facebook status I posted a couple weeks ago intimating that I was hurting greatly:

Perhaps Rainer Maria Rilke carries a message.. “i beg you…to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a foreign language. don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, bec you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer…”

In a comment replying, I shared that I found the offered quote beautiful and heartbreakingly relevant. So much so that it takes my breath away to read it, and commenting on it right now actually feels like it interrupts the silent reverence I feel toward it.

I have been absent from the online world in large part for the past few weeks. Not only have I not posted here, I have also not often visited the blogs I have been known to frequent. I have felt very concentrated during this time on, among other things, staying with pain and alignment with the Universe. While it is hard to explain, in my experience such takes an exquisite attention that (for me at this point) allows little distraction.

It is Fall, the season in Five-Element Acupuncture that offers reflection, respect, and acknowledgment. Acknowledgment of what is. Not what we want to be, or what we think should be, or what used to be. What is. I myself have felt called in the past few weeks to face some things the ego in me had not wanted me to, and doing so not only resulted in considerable pain but also required (in large part due to said pain) utter awareness and attention in staying with what is and attending to pain without trying to avoid it as the ego wants us to do. One of the acupuncture points I received at my treatment last week offered the invitation to “Face everything, avoid nothing.”

Such is absolutely the aim in me.

Right now unkowing pervades me. It feels exquisitely, precisely beautiful. The unknowing is a lovely foreshadowing of Winter, which in Five-Element Acupuncture begins October 31 and holds the offerings of mystery, depth, stillness, silence — ultimate unknowing.

There is more, of course, but I just wanted to post a hello and acknowledgment (heh, spirit of Fall) of my absence the past couple weeks here and elsewhere online as I slowly reintegrate an online presence. I wish everyone well, as always, and thank you for coming by.


“On this essential level, the facts of your situation take on a sense of meaning, of richness and of depth, because they usher you into the realm of what really exists, beyond the surface of things. An essential truth is not a thought, an idea, a reaction, or an action . . . . It is self-existing.”
A. H. Almaas

September 13th, 2009

The Cougar Book Lineup!

I am utterly delighted to announce that Jolie du Pre has accepted my story “To Make It That Way” for inclusion in The Cougar Book, to be published early next year by Logical-Lust Publications! Not only am I thrilled to have my story included in the anthology, I am also delighted to be working with Jolie and Logical-Lust again (who were the editor and publisher, respectively, of SWING! Adventures in Swinging by Today’s Top Erotica Writers).

The Cougar Book is scheduled to be published on February 14, 2010. The table of contents, which includes writers such as Donna George Storey, Jeremy Edwards, Craig Sorensen, Heidi Champa, and many more, is now posted here!


That was the end of what I initiated. She took over from there, dropping us both to the kitchen floor and straddling me as she pulled her still-buttoned shirt over her head. She was naked underneath, and the memory of that first glorious view of her full, round tits and the way she ran her fingertips over her nipples can still make me hard. She had a condom in her jeans pocket, and she fucked me right there on the kitchen floor before any nervousness in me had time to catch up.
-from “To Make It That Way,” forthcoming in The Cougar Book

September 6th, 2009

Two Thumbs Up for Love Notes!

Erotica Revealed has given two thumbs up this month to Love Notes: A Music & Sex Anthology, edited by Rachel Kramer Bussel and published by Ravenous Romance! Love Notes, which was released in February of this year, includes my story “With Random Precision.”

Reviewer Jean Roberta said the following:

“In general, these stories do a remarkable job of describing something that is almost indescribable in words: the effects of rhythm and melody on human psyches.”

I really like that line (as well as find it astute), as music is such a compelling subject to me, especially in conjunction with eroticism. That’s one of the reasons I was so excited to be included in this anthology. I’ve also much enjoyed the other stories I’ve read in the volume, so I’m really pleased to see it get a two-thumbs-up review! The rest of the review may be found here (scroll down).

I was also delighted to see that Ms. Roberta gave my story a passing mention with, “In ‘With Random Precision’ by Emerald, the female narrator sinks deeply into sub-space while being bound with purple silk rope to the sound of a Pink Floyd classic, ‘Shine On You Crazy Diamond.'”

Thank you to Ms. Jean Roberta and Erotica Revealed!


“Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light…”
-Pink Floyd “Shine On You Crazy Diamond, Pts. 1-5”