Archive for September 30, 2009
Living Into the Answer…
Greetings.
A beautiful individual I feel blessed and honored to know commented (in part) the following on a Facebook status I posted a couple weeks ago intimating that I was hurting greatly:
Perhaps Rainer Maria Rilke carries a message.. “i beg you…to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a foreign language. don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, bec you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer…”
In a comment replying, I shared that I found the offered quote beautiful and heartbreakingly relevant. So much so that it takes my breath away to read it, and commenting on it right now actually feels like it interrupts the silent reverence I feel toward it.
I have been absent from the online world in large part for the past few weeks. Not only have I not posted here, I have also not often visited the blogs I have been known to frequent. I have felt very concentrated during this time on, among other things, staying with pain and alignment with the Universe. While it is hard to explain, in my experience such takes an exquisite attention that (for me at this point) allows little distraction.
It is Fall, the season in Five-Element Acupuncture that offers reflection, respect, and acknowledgment. Acknowledgment of what is. Not what we want to be, or what we think should be, or what used to be. What is. I myself have felt called in the past few weeks to face some things the ego in me had not wanted me to, and doing so not only resulted in considerable pain but also required (in large part due to said pain) utter awareness and attention in staying with what is and attending to pain without trying to avoid it as the ego wants us to do. One of the acupuncture points I received at my treatment last week offered the invitation to “Face everything, avoid nothing.”
Such is absolutely the aim in me.
Right now unkowing pervades me. It feels exquisitely, precisely beautiful. The unknowing is a lovely foreshadowing of Winter, which in Five-Element Acupuncture begins October 31 and holds the offerings of mystery, depth, stillness, silence — ultimate unknowing.
There is more, of course, but I just wanted to post a hello and acknowledgment (heh, spirit of Fall) of my absence the past couple weeks here and elsewhere online as I slowly reintegrate an online presence. I wish everyone well, as always, and thank you for coming by.
Love,
Emerald
“On this essential level, the facts of your situation take on a sense of meaning, of richness and of depth, because they usher you into the realm of what really exists, beyond the surface of things. An essential truth is not a thought, an idea, a reaction, or an action . . . . It is self-existing.”
-A. H. Almaas
