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July 11th, 2009

Motivation Unknown

I have no idea why I’m doing this, really, but inexplicably I have felt moved recently to post a poem here. Erobintica just posted on her blog that she finished a chapbook on which she had been working hard (congratulations!), and I was reminded of a little chapbook I put together a few years ago just for myself. There was a particular collection of poems I had that seemed to want to be together. I only created one copy (again, it was just for me), and it still sits on my desk. The chapbook’s title is “Delicacy Masquerading as Invincibility: Poems of a broken heart.” It contains 11 poems that were written from about 2002 to 2004. None of them is erotic (I’ve never written erotic poetry), but again, while I have no idea what is moving me to do so, I share one of them here now.

Unique Among the Rest

At midnight
we walked through this parking lot

so many times.

Motionless in their clusters, the peonies
splashed invisible through the air
dictating all we inhaled

and everything that told me not to be with you
when you weren’t there
was taken by the darkness

every time.

Until one week ago when
the starlight finally told me
I can’t keep doing this to myself
just because I love you.

Today, it’s my birthday
and I guess this is it for us.

I stand here now alone
watching the stars clear and certain above me,
and I know (whether you see it or not)
I may not have been your only one
but I will always be unique among the rest

even as the smell of peonies
makes me want to stop breathing.

Love,
Emerald

“I’m in the moment, the one where nothing matters and everything’s all right…”
-Sister Hazel “In the Moment”

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July 4th, 2009

I Like Fireworks

It has come to my attention that the lovely Alana Noel Voth (author of the poignant “Rock Stars in Particular Order,” a recommended read from me) nominated me for a Kreative Blogger Award. This nomination apparently means that the nominator finds the nominated blog worthy of such a label/nomination. Thank you Alana. I feel quite flattered by this nomination as such, especially since I find Alana truly and deeply inspiring.

As I understand it nominees are invited to nominate seven blogs accordingly for the Kreativ Blogger Award and also list seven things that they like. Alana also nominated Nikki Magennis, Donna George Storey, and Craig Sorensen, all of whom would likely have been on my list of nominees along with Alana herself. In addition, Donna and Nikki have already nominated themselves a number of the blogs that would also likely be on my list. Probably I should thank all these people for making it much easier to narrow any list of nominees from me down to seven.

Seven blogs I have appreciated/enjoyed include the following.

Kristina Wright: Musings of an Insomniac Writer
Marina St. Clare
Scarlett Greyson
Neve Black: Foreplay for Your Mind
Cora Zane: Stars Will Cry
Tony Comstock: The Art & Business of Making Erotic Films
Oscarelli

Seven things I like —

Fireworks
Bees
Butterflies
Circles
Glitter
Baseball
The smell of indoor pools*

Looking at that list, I can see why I like summer so much too.

Speaking of summer, and of fireworks, happy Fourth of July to all celebrating it as a holiday, and to all who aren’t, happy fourth of July as, you know, the fourth day of the month of July. :)

Thank you again Alana!

Xoxox,
Emerald

* Yes, it is the chlorine smell I like — not by itself, as that can be quite hazardous to one’s health and, in my experience, rather unpleasant. But when diluted in a swimming pool, I find the smell sublime.

“I know you know it can’t get much better, fireworks flying whenever we’re together…we’ll see fireworks tonight…”
-Plain White T’s “Fireworks”

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May 31st, 2009

An Expression of Sorrow

I was jolted and deeply saddened to see the news today that Dr. George Tiller was shot and killed this morning. Having worked professionally in reproductive rights previously and been an activist in the arena for years, I have been familiar with Dr. Tiller’s presence and work. Continuously I felt grateful for his contribution even among the hostility that was sometimes directed at him.

For those not familiar with Dr. Tiller, he was a long-time abortion doctor whose service included performing late-term abortions. It was this service that was often a target of anti-abortion activists and protests. There are very few places in this country (United States) where one may medically obtain an abortion after 21 weeks of pregnancy, and Dr. Tiller’s clinic was one of them. Abortions sought this late in a pregnancy are generally due to severe/life-threatening fetal abnormalities or out of concern for the health or life of the pregnant woman.

This is an expression of deep reverence and sorrow particularly to the family of George Tiller and those close to him. In addition I express again gratitude for Dr. Tiller’s service, especially in the midst of the threats that sometimes surrounded it.

And love to all.

Love,
Emerald

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April 22nd, 2009

Rick Records Record for Wrecking It

Folks using IE will have noticed that my introductory posting to the site caused the site to gag. There was some dorky XHTML that came along when I copied it out of Word. It has been fixed and shouldn’t be a problem in the future.

-Rick

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March 26th, 2009

These Boots Were Made For…

Okay, I know these really don’t have much to do with anything (well, they could have to do with sex — see post title — but they literally just arrived, so they don’t quite yet), but I am so in love with them that I just wanted to, well, post pictures of them on my blog.

Aren’t they amazing? I’ve gotten little done tonight because I just keep staring at them….

Xoxoxo,
Emerald

“Whose bed have your boots been under, and whose heart did you steal I wonder, this time did it feel like thunder baby?…”
-Shania Twain “Whose Bed Have Your Boots Been Under?”

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March 3rd, 2009

Absurdly Un-Neat, Indeed

Some of you may know that the inimitable Alison Tyler has been requesting samples of people’s notes and has even devoted a new blog to the subject. Today she has posted mine (along with a charming alliterative description of me) and the accompanying description I sent her by email. The pictures she has posted are from an early draft of my story “With Random Precision,” published in Love Notes: A Music & Sex Anthology edited by Rachel Kramer Bussel.

Thanks Alison!

Xoxox,
Emerald

“Baby write this down, take a little note, to remind you in case you didn’t know…”
George Strait “Write This Down”

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January 31st, 2009