Archive for Sex+ Writing: Mine

July 22nd, 2011

A Release at Good Vibrations Magazine!

I am delighted to say that I have a brand new story, “Release,” up at Good Vibrations Magazine today! I am such a fan of Good Vibrations Magazine and continue to find it an honor to be published there amongst the extraordinary bloggers and fellow authors regularly featured on it.

“Release” is live now and may be found right here! :)

Love,
Emerald

I remember when I first found myself attracted to you, moments after I met you on one of the first trips I made to your city. I almost brushed it off, thinking in perhaps even a condescending way that sexually, you weren’t likely to understand or be willing to give me what I wanted.

The degree to which I was wrong still surprises me. You, who seemed so unlike that outside of sex, so quiet, so polite, so demure—you understood right away. I didn’t even have to explain it to you. I just had to let you know.
-from “Release”

July 19th, 2011

Out Now and Coming Soon! :)

Obsessed is here! Editor Rachel Kramer Bussel announced yesterday that her latest erotic romance anthology, Obsessed, is in stock now on Amazon! Publisher Cleis Press also lists it as available now, so it has been officially released a couple weeks early (it was due in August)!

Obsessed includes my story “Then” (which I mentioned previously happens to be a “sequel” story to “If,” which was published last year in Rachel’s erotic romance anthology Passion), and I am delighted that it is included in this collection. The table of contents, introduction, and a list of retailers may all be found here on the book’s website. Rachel is also planning an Obessed book release party to be held Thursday, August 25!

In other news, I am completely thrilled that I will have a story in the forthcoming anthology One Night Only: Erotic Encounters, edited by Violet Blue! I am very excited to be part of this collection and am downright giddy that Violet chose to include my story “City Girl” in it.

The publication (by Cleis Press) date for One Night Only is set right now at January 2012. I haven’t seen the table of contents, so I don’t know who else is in it, but I adore the theme (and the cover!), and I can hardly wait to receive and read it next year!

Yay and yay! ;)

Love,
Emerald

I expected to feel nervous, anticipated the adrenaline as I stood in Hayden’s bedroom. But as my eyes locked with his as he stood near the foot of his bed, all I felt coursing through me was the unadulterated desire I had felt every time I’d looked at Hayden. My body shuddered as I took a deep breath.
-from “Then” in Obsessed

July 7th, 2011

Best Erotic Romance Just Finalized!

I am so utterly delighted that my story “Honey Changes Everything” will be included in Best Erotic Romance edited by the magnificent Kristina Wright and published by Cleis Press later this year! This is my first time officially working with Kristina, and I am thrilled by the opportunity. :)

In addition, the book has a positively all-star table of contents, and I am ecstatic to be included and so looking forward to reading it!

Best Erotic Romance is available for pre-order now on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and Borders, and is scheduled for release December 2011.

Rather than list all the extraordinary authors I’m so delighted to be alongside in this anthology, I’m just going to post the table of contents in its entirety:

Best Erotic Romance 2012
edited by Kristina Wright

Introduction: Simply the Best

What Happened in Vegas Sylvia Day

First Night Donna George Storey

Another Trick Up My Sleeve Heidi Champa

Drive Me Crazy Delilah Devlin

Once Upon a Dinner Date Saskia Walker

He Tends To Me Justine Elyot

Guest Services Angela Caperton

Memories for Sale Andrea Dale

Blame It On Facebook Kate Dominic

The Draft Craig J. Sorensen

To Be in Clover Shanna Germain

Honey Changes Everything Emerald (Me!)

Cheating Time Kate Pearce

Our Own Private Champagne Room Rachel Kramer Bussel

Till the Storm Breaks Erobintica

The Curve of Her Belly Kristina Wright

Dawn Chorus Nikki Magennis

Wow! :)

Love,
Emerald

The sticky liquid began to descend, creeping toward her nipples. Kim opened her mouth to object as Terry dipped his head and caught a nipple between his teeth just as it was engulfed. Her breath caught in her throat, and she remained silent as he grasped her breast from underneath, his tongue swirling over the golden sweetness.
-from “Honey Changes Everything”

May 19th, 2011

Announcing The Other Dance!

In 2006 my mother introduced me to a small literary arts-and-nature-focused journal called Heron Dance. I experienced her as saying she suspected it would resonate with me, and she was correct. I have been a subscriber and follower of Heron Dance, which has traversed numerous transitions of format, focus, and personnel at the helm, ever since.

by Rod MacIver

The (both original and current) founder and painter of Heron Dance is Rod MacIver, whom I have mentioned or quoted a few times here at The Green Light District. A year and a half ago I even posted an announcement that he was beginning a new venture, an erotic newsletter to correspond with the nude and erotic paintings he had been doing. Shortly after that announcement, a number of transitions, including with staff, occurred at Heron Dance (a very small company and press), and my understanding was The Other Dance was put on indefinite hold in the face of more pressing business concerns that unexpectedly inhibited the practical embarkment on a new project at the time.

At this time Heron Dance has recently undergone a few transitions again, most notably in ceasing the print publication of its journal and instating an online membership fee (of $2 a month) for daily receipt of written content by Rod (entitled “Reflections of a Wild Artist”—this may still be received once a week for free by signing up here), discounts on the purchase of paintings, and access to certain areas of the website only accessible by members.

One of which will house The Other Dance, the erotic online newsletter Heron Dance is now ready to create and develop as an integral part of its professional offerings. The Other Dance will publish a new edition each Tuesday, featuring one of Rod’s nude or erotic paintings alongisde a piece of erotic fiction.

I am introducing and speaking about this so much because, I am thrilled and honored (and a little stunned!) to say, I have been hired to be the editor of The Other Dance.

Since The Other Dance area is only accessible to members, I will take the liberty to quote here from Rod’s paragraph introducing the venture from its page on the Heron Dance site:

”A common denominator in all of the diverse perspectives Heron Dance has explored over the sixteen years since it was founded is a probing of the boundaries of the human experience. The edges — the edges between wilderness and civilization, the edges in terms of the human search for meaning and in terms of what it means to live a highly-creative life. Delving into human sensuality and sexuality is a natural evolution of that exploration.”

As those familiar with me or my work will know, it has long been an aim of mine to open dialogue around sexuality, ease the collective discomfort our society seems to feel around it, relax the repression of the innate and exquisite phenomenon of the human sexual impulse, and ultimately support the cherishing and respect for this facet of life. Ingredients I see as integral to these aims include self-awareness, contemplation, openness, and love. Since I first heard of it, I have experienced Heron Dance as embodying a respect for and focus on the importance of these qualities as well, and my aim continues as the editor of The Other Dance to be to support the manifestation of these aspects in the context of sexuality.

by Rod MacIver

Before I move into the business side of things, I want to mention that at this time, the publisher is only seeking to publish work by female (or female-identified) authors—and I personally and truly apologize to the numerous beautiful male authors I know and whose work I adore that I won’t (for the time being) get to seek to work with them in this endeavor.

With that said, The Other Dance technically launched May 3, when Rod published a piece he had received last year to officially solidify the creation of The Other Dance. After he got in touch with me a couple weeks ago regarding this endeavor, he wanted to publish an edited version of “Rain Check,” my story from Rachel Kramer Bussel‘s anthology Tasting Her (as I understand it, Rod’s introduction to my work was clicking on the video of my reading said story at In The Flesh in 2008 when he visited my website), and it went live last Tuesday, May 10.

Two days ago, on Tuesday, May 17, the first piece officially published with me as the editor went live: “Strands of Imagination,” by Robin “Erobintica” Sampson! It has been an honor and delight to work with Robin as I take my first steps into this venture, and I offer her my thanks and congratulations. Robin wrote “Strands of Imagination” for one of Alison Tyler‘s flash fiction contests some time ago, and when I presented it to Rod, I experienced him as very in favor of publishing it.

For any female erotica authors reading this, I would likely love to work with you in such a capacity too! :) The Other Dance submissions guidelines may found on the Heron Dance website here, and I plan to submit them to the Erotica Readers and Writers Association call for submissions page as well.

There is a page on the Heron Dance site where reader feedback is posted—and it is not confined to the complimentary. I have had the impression over the years that Rod has received feedback encompassing varying perspectives and levels of appreciation for his offerings throughout the 17-year duration of Heron Dance. As I recall his stating at the time, never did this seem so active as when he first introduced the subject of sexuality to the work he offered to the public and his followers. When I was perusing the feedback page a few days ago, this comment caught my eye:

“Please cancel sending me Heron Dance, after a number of years! I am a published author and enjoyed your readings and paintings, etc., until you got all hepped up about sex. You had a nice, decent, above board periodical, now you have trash just like the next guy.”

While I honor this commenter’s experience and perspective, I feel sadness that the inclusion of discussion about or the mere mention of sexuality would relegate a literary/artistic endeavor to seeming like “trash.” I was a subscriber to Heron Dance when Rod’s transition to sharing and speaking about sexuality occurred, and whether or not one desired to see or be exposed to the subject, I never felt like anything I read seemed like “trash” at all. Granted, I have tended to feel quite receptive of open dialogue about sexuality, but I also truly found what Rod expressed on the subject quite in line with the way I had experienced his sharing in general about art and nature—probing, thoughtful, curious, raw, and sincere.

At the time, I certainly never imagined I would be offered the opportunity to become the first editor of the project into which that orientation would develop: a weekly electronic newsletter created to feature Rod’s erotic/nude paintings alongside written content of an erotic nature.

It is my honor to accept it.

Love,
Emerald

“I want to dance with you, I see a sky full of the stars that change our minds, that lead us back to a world we would not face…”
-LIVE “Dance With You”

May 5th, 2011

Then As Now

This post originally appeared on the Good Vibrations Magazine.

“But paradise, we found, is always frail; against man’s fear will always fail…”
-From the narrated poem in the opening of Dangerous Beauty

Several months ago I watched my favorite movie for the first time. While I would love to post all manner of clips here and expound on what I find to be the film’s myriad virtues, that would encompass spoilers—and since I would rather everybody in the world watch the movie, I will resist the temptation and talk instead about a few universal themes I observed in watching it.

The movie is Dangerous Beauty. The screenplay is adapted from the book The Honest Courtesan, a biography by Margaret Rosenthal of Veronica Franco, sixteenth-century Venetian writer/poet and courtesan. Ms. Franco lived, and thus the events in the movie and the time period in which they are contextualized occurred, 450 years ago—a time so far in the distant past it may seem archaic or hard to conceptualize in light of how different human society is now.

Except it’s not. Different, that is. As I finished watching Dangerous Beauty for the first time that day last year, I was struck by how much, on some level, we have not changed.

Now indeed, I will say first that there are things that have on some level shifted or rearranged such that our gender roles, for example, seem less strict, and of course I appreciate that. At this point and in this location on the earth, I have additional options as a woman to survive financially beyond marrying, becoming a nun, or working as a courtesan or prostitute. There are practical ways in which women in many parts of the world have far more opportunities for financial independence now than they did in sixteenth-century Venice. This of course calls for acknowledgement, and I duly extend it. My personal appreciation for such is profound, and to not acknowledge that would be disingenuous and inappropriate.

That withstanding, however, I would argue that throughout our collective civilization, deep-seated and unconscious perceptions and distortions still exist that relegate us in very fundamental ways to the same as we were then. We’re dressed up a little bit differently—but we’re the same. So much so that it’s staggering.

Marriage is still a contract (if in doubt, observe phenomena such as alimony and the state’s having anything to do with whom is “allowed” to marry), and though what we tend to associate with romantic love seems more of a reason to marry now than then, people still feel political, financial, or other reasons to get married. Marriage itself is still expected—monogamy is still the default, the standard for people’s lives in romantic relationship. Affairs still exist, and we still pretend not to acknowledge their prevalence or potential complexity as any invitation to examine the possibility that monogamy and marriage are perhaps not the ideal configurations for all individuals.

“The Church” still inserts itself into public affairs—sometimes via official governments—claiming an esoteric authority and the position to judge the general populace according to the standards it chooses to set. We are still compelled by war. Poverty, disease, populist unrest remain. There is still rampant evidence of nationalism, classism, sexism, and political manipulation. We are still encouraged to follow the rules, whatever they may be, and not question or flout them lest we interrupt the fragile illusion of whatever arbitrary perspective of “reality” our ego-based selves have created and think they feel comfortable with.

In Dangerous Beauty, when the plague begins to run rampant through Venice, the townspeople/collective society turn on what is considered the decadence and indulgence of the city, of which courtesans are perceived to be squarely in the middle. A following of religiously oriented purveyors develops and overtly blames “those who tempt us” with “fornication and carnal practices” for the “God”-inflicted downfall of the republic.

In response to a protest that the Inquisition has appeared in Venice, the doge (presiding figure of the republic at the time) responds, “Fifty-six thousand people are dead. The living want answers. They may be the wrong answers, but they want them just the same.”

To me this line virtually epitomizes that which has not changed in four and a half centuries. Throughout society there are examples of selective intervention in human rights abuses, astounding hypocrisy in application of laws, and scapegoating of cultures, people, entities in order to get “answers” that a part of us finds tolerable internally and/or in response to the cognitive dissonance in us.

What seems most concerning to me about this uncanny similarity to a time centuries ago is not just the clarity with which it seems that we are such a parallel reflection of it but that we do not seem to realize that. We truly think we are different. That things were so primitive then, that they were so inhibited, their roles so strictly defined. We think we are so advanced because we have skyscrapers and spaceships and smartphones. But we still use that technological capacity to create ways to destroy each other and ourselves—which tells me we are not.

It seems obvious to me that despite our apparent advances and some level of progress in social redresses, under the surface the same prejudices, constraints, ignorance, and fear that formed what was seen in sixteenth-century Venice is with us now and still forming the same things. The seemingly obvious things like racism, classism, xenophobia, sexism are outcrops, manifestations, of what has remained the same—which is our ignorance of ourselves. We have not awakened enough to be consistently aware of our true nature. We are not conscious of the unconditional love that is the deepest level of ourselves and the innate oneness of the universe.

Underlying this lack of awareness is the resistance and refusal to examine ourselves, to see that it is what is inside ourselves that may be tormenting us rather than projecting it onto a perceived external. Repression is one of the key ingredients in this phenomenon, and repression of a fundamental instinct—such as, say, the sexual one—is one of this phenomenon’s very bedrocks.

As in the movie, many of the above-described circumstances and the societal responses decrying and attacking them have to do with sex. All over the world, a conservative populace still behaves as though perceived “immorality” around sexuality is or will be the downfall of civilization. “The Church” (represented by fundamentalist perspectives of virtually all major religions) still bewails “fornication and carnal practices” and proclaims our collective suffering “punishment” for a culture steeped in “sin.” These perspectives seem to see open sexuality rather than denouncement, vilification, and repression as dangerous, sinful, and undesirable.

Why would this be? As depicted so beautifully in Dangerous Beauty, sexuality is one of the preeminent paths to love (not just romantic, but love in the universal sense), self-awareness, Divinity, connection, gratitude, openness, and beauty. Then as now, this aspect is so fundamental to us that it instills the kind of fear that has through the ages attracted measures of denouncement, repression, fear, violence, and desperation in the face of truly experiencing and interacting with it because it is so impossibly close to us, so unavoidably reflective of ourselves—we cannot not see ourselves if we are truly and openly acknowledging and examining the sexual impulse within us. It forces us to face ourselves, and to truly do that is something we have found, probably throughout our human existence, excruciatingly difficult to do. Sexuality, our instinctive drive for what it represents, for pleasure and beauty and openness and love, is so close that we must either surrender to it or do everything in our power to control it. Yes, there are measures in between, but the sexual impulse does not give up—it doesn’t have that capacity. No matter how we try to control it, sexuality just is. It’s how we be with it that is the opportunity.

Sexual repression appeared rampant at the time of Dangerous Beauty‘s depiction (and highly encouraged by social structures at that time). It appears rampant to me now (and highly encouraged, perhaps in superficially different ways, by social structures currently). Am I suggesting that a large part of the fear, hatred, and relentless harm we do each other around the world at this time is based, at least in part, on sexual repression?

I am.

At a key point in the film, Veronica Franco’s character states,

“I confess I find more ecstasy in passion than in prayer. Such passion is prayer. . . . I confess I hunger still to be filled and enflamed, to melt into the dream of us, beyond this troubled place—to where we are not even ourselves.”

Those lines gave me chills the first time I watched the movie, and they did again yesterday when I watched it most recently. I would certainly not say that everyone should agree with them and feel the same way—we are all unique and experience things as such. I do wish, though, truly and deeply, that we would see the offering in them and open to discover whatever truth resonates uniquely and authentically within each of us.

It is in that, it seems to me, that true progress lies.

Love,
Emerald

“It’s not too late, think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play…”
-Adam Lambert “Aftermath”

May 3rd, 2011

Obsessed Coming Soon!

I am quite delighted to announce that the anthology of erotic romance, Obsessed, edited by Rachel Kramer Bussel and published by Cleis Press, is set for official release on August 1! Rachel has just released the table of contents and introduction, and they may be found on the anthology’s website here.

I am very excited that my story “Then” is included in Obsessed. It happens that this story is a sequel to my story “If” that is found in the erotic romance anthology Passion (also edited by Rachel and published by Cleis) that was released last year. Writing a “sequel” as such was not anything I had ever done, but shortly before I began working on a submission for Obsessed, it occurred to me that there was more story to be told about the characters in “If.” The timing happened to coincide so that I got to conduct this experiment, if you will, just in time to submit the follow-up story to “If” to Rachel’s call for her next anthology of erotic romance.

As has not been unusual, I am completely thrilled to be in the company of some of my favorite erotica authors in this anthology, including Donna George Storey, Kristina Wright, Charlotte Stein, Justine Elyot, Andrea Dale, and numerous others as well as Rachel herself! I can hardly wait for my contributor copies to come.

According to Rachel’s blog, though Obsessed is slated to be officially released and available on Kindle August 1, it may end up showing up by mid-July! It is available for pre-order on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and Borders now.

Love,
Emerald

I felt a combination of gratitude and wistfulness wash over me as we headed up the stairs. Though my attraction to Hayden was still strong, the relief I felt at its being out in the open was immense, and the appreciation I felt toward Chris for not finding it threatening was almost fierce. . . . I headed for the closet with a smile, unzipping my dress as I walked. I opened the closet door and almost dropped my dress when Chris said, “So you’re interested in Hayden sexually?”

I froze. That was a trick question if there ever was one. Especially since Chris already knew the answer.
-from “Then,” forthcoming in Obsessed, to be released August 2011.

April 11th, 2011

Part 2 of “Out of the Park” Up Now!

I’m also appreciating the opportunity to simply display this gorgeous picture. :)

But in addition, as the title of this post suggests, part 2 (of 2) of my story “Out of the Park” is up now at Good Vibrations Magazine! (Part 1, which was published last Monday, is linked to at the beginning of the post.)

Thanks again to the lovely Good Vibrations Magazine, and happy baseball season! ;)

Love,
Emerald

As the elevator doors closed behind us, Mark shoved his hand under my skirt and moaned when he felt how wet I was. The elevator dinged, and I darted into the hallway before the doors had even fully opened. I slid our key card into the door, and we spilled into the room, the vivid white lights from the field beaming from the window through the darkness. I ran to it and stopped abruptly as, for the second time, the panoramic view of the field took my breath away.
-from “Out of the Park”

April 4th, 2011

Stepping Up to the Plate at Good Vibrations Magazine!

The last few weeks around here have been devoted to what seemed like a slew of deadlines (I’m happy to say I made them all, except for one that happened to have been extended, so I might still make it!). The frenziedness was then capped off by attending the utterly incredible MOMENTUM conference, conceived and organized by Tess Danesi and Diva, over the weekend! Robin “Erobintica” Sampson and a friend of hers (and mine) came down to stay with me since the conference was local to where I live, and I look forward to blogging about how I experienced the weekend after I’ve decompressed a little. In the meantime, if you haven’t yet, I recommend visiting Erobintica’s blog to check out her interview from last week with Erika Lust, along with her review of Erika’s book Good Porn: A Woman’s Guide.

The main reason for this quick post now, though, is to say that I have (part 1 of) a new story published today at Good Vibrations Magazine! It’s called “Out of the Park,” and it will be posted in two parts—part 1 went up today, and part 2 is slated for next Monday (and will link back to part 1). I’m very excited to be published at Good Vibrations Magazine again—especially just in time for the start of baseball season, which opened last week! ;)

Love,
Emerald

Nevertheless, by the fifth inning I was so wet I wondered if I was leaving a spot on the seat. The energy of the game in front of me felt like it was physically permeating me, transferring directly to sexual heat and dispersing through my body like the players onto the field before each inning. In addition, the game was close, increasing the intensity throughout the stadium.
-from “Out of the Park”